• Health,  Mindset

    And breathe….

    I realised that I didn’t do my update on my blog!  This week has been a whirlwind since getting my PET scan results because we are travelling the week and I have so much to get ready!  Anyway, my PET scan didn’t show anything new and ominous and in the words of my oncologist “It’s very, very good!” which is the best news ever! My husband and I were talking about the differences in how we feel – the waiting zone and the good news zone – it’s literally two separate worlds! That surge of relief and happiness is quickly followed by complete exhaustion from the anxiety! No matter how…

  • Mental Health

    But I don’t want to go there…

    Where is there? It’s the future, even just a few weeks ahead gives me palpitations. My husband I had a feedback session with my daughter’s psychologist this week. She was talking about Arabella’s schooling and how there’s a good high school called bla bla in bla bla near where we live….it was only chit chat but I secretly sat there wanting to cry. I cannot deal with the future because, I am scared I may not be there and I have worked so hard to live in the present moment, but that doesn’t mean that the future doesn’t pop up though! I had to calm my thoughts and recenter –…

  • Fitness,  Mindset,  Nutrition

    What’s stopping you?

    I used to live in past and worry about the future all the while missing out on the present. We have heard it before life changing events can change our perspectives and I for one, learnt about gratitude and to focus on today. In fact the future terrifies me now so much that I rarely go into that territory! As for the past, well what can I change? Nothing, so why bother. I have dealt with certain traumas and accepted them for what they are. I am sure on a subconscious level, things still lurk about but I can’t control that. Life has become so much lighter, stress has been…

  • Fitness,  Mindset,  Nutrition

    How I start my day and why

    Hi there, So, I have made a conscious decision to start posting regularly – call it journaling if you like! I created this space to share my cancer experiences as well as others; and well I have neglected it! However, I want to make this a space about all parts if me, not just the cancer part. That means chatting about things that I am passionate about. You should all know by now that I am plant based – if you don’t know, I switched to a PB lifestyle after my first liver resection and have never looked back! Goes without saying, I will be chatting lots about this and…

  • Health,  Nutrition

    What has been your journey to today?

    I faced death right in the eye on the 8th August 2019 when I was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer which had mestastisized to my liver (& at the time we thought the lung also but luckily it hadn’t), time froze & I remember almost leaving my body. It still haunts me to this day, the surreal feeling of that news because let’s face it, the mention of stage 4 to someone that knew nothing about cancer was not good. The mind only goes in one direction. How did this happen? I’m a mom. I can’t die. My child. Absolute panic beyond words. But somehow, I got myself together…

  • Health,  Nutrition

    I want to share a secret!

    I have been busy working on a new project which I am so excited to share with you! After my first liver resection, I became fully plant based (no animal or fish products). I had previously swapped out dairy milks with plant milks and over time removed all animal products. I found that I had more energy, no bloating, improved digestion, bowel movements and moods, and I have no guilt about what’s on my plate! When I had my second liver resection and post-op infection, I credit my plant based diet to my quick recovery. There are endless benefits to a plant based lifestyle, including health, ethical and environmental!  …

  • Health,  Mental Health

    Life as I currently know it

    I have not updated in like forever ( I say that on every post!) and they’re always on my Instagram stories so some of you miss them! Quick recap for those who don’t know me that well. I had a recurrence of colon/bowel cancer mets in my liver October 2021. A 3cm lesion was cut out and I went into remission AGAIN! I’m currently on IV Oxaliplatin three weekly. Side effects (I get are neuropathy, nothing cold at all or my digits do all kinds of weird things and my throat closes. Bad nausea and overall exhaustion. I am up and about but I can’t drive until at least day…

  • Cancer

    One of those days

    As the sun begins to rise, I wonder what the day will bring, I wonder what I’ll do today, I wonder about the choices I’ve made, I wonder why the cancer came, I wonder why it left again, I wonder when the cycle ends. I wonder how my daughter feels, I wonder how I can protect her, I wonder if I’ll cry today, I wonder if I’ll take that walk, Feel the breeze and sun upon my worn-out skin. I wonder if my husband’s tired, And how he’s really feeling inside. I wonder how it feels, to hug my family, And what they’re doing now. I wonder if my life’s…

  • Mental Health

    I was laying on my sofa….

    Friday had been a long day, Arabella, my daughter was on on her third day off school with a sore throat and runny nose. Even when she is poorly, she has so much energy and doesn’t understand the concept of rest; she’s six.  By the evening, she had fallen asleep next to me on the sofa, she plays with my hair to comfort her; something she has done since a baby and something she has never grown out of. I don’t mind, it also brings me comfort having her so close to me and feeling needed. It is in those quiet moments, when I feel so much unconditional and crazy love…

  • Cancer

    A special message

    I just wanted to pop on and send a special message to my friends who are on active treatment or have had treatments/scans delayed, who have had bad news and those who have lost loved ones or are missing someone. I have chatted with several friends over the course of the holidays and while so many are celebrating (rightly so) many people have been scared, sick or broken hearted. These are the people that teach me humility, when I think my life isn’t perfect, one message can bring me back to reality and teach me to appreciate this life. So often I can get swept away with all the things…