As the sun begins to rise, I wonder what the day will bring,
I wonder what I’ll do today,
I wonder about the choices I’ve made,
I wonder why the cancer came,
I wonder why it left again,
I wonder when the cycle ends.
I wonder how my daughter feels,
I wonder how I can protect her,
I wonder if I’ll cry today,
I wonder if I’ll take that walk,
Feel the breeze and sun upon my worn-out skin.
I wonder if my husband’s tired,
And how he’s really feeling inside.
I wonder how it feels, to hug my family,
And what they’re doing now.
I wonder if my life’s passing me by,
I wonder off into the future,
But mostly come back to today.
I wonder if my fear will ever leave,
Or if it’s here to stay.
I wonder if, one day,
My mind will clear, and I’ll wonder less.
I wonder if what makes me, me,
Is that I wonder so much,
I wonder if I should accept my thoughts,
And let them, come and go,
As the sun begins to set, I wonder where the day went,
And as I close my eyes to sleep,
I wonder why I did so little – I wonder why?!
For now, I’ll keep on wondering, maybe make it less,
Rather, I’ll wander more, through this wonderful life I have.
– Joanna Naicker
I wrote this a while ago, when I was having one of those days. The days we can all relate to, with or without a cancer diagnosis. These days aren’t everyday but they’re valuable and eventually we make sense of them. I thought today was a good day to share, I’m having one of those days!
Let me know if you can relate? Love Jojo xoxo