Life as I know it –   The beginning of 2012 I thought: ‘Why is my leg so painful? Maybe I pulled a muscle while playing hockey, I should probably go to the physio.’   The beginning of 2020 (pre COVID), I thought: ‘I don’t want to die! I don’t want to feel pain! I really don’t want to die!’   These two thoughts seem worlds and years apart but are both related to the same thing, the awful thing I did not see coming – cancer.   I was laying in bed one evening in August 2012 when I felt a lump in my left thigh.  It was not painful.…